beginning of my youth!

My age probably still quite young to be familiar with cigarettes and alcohol! but it was me! at the time I had just aged 14 years, I already know the name of cigarettes! and at the time I was 16 years old I already know the name of alcohol!but maybe all of that form of protest from within myself!I admit my lack of attention from my parents! I'm used to living free! when I was a primary school! I've left my parents worked in jakarta! cuman I lived with my grandmother who was practically old man! with age which had reached almost 60 years! three grandchildren she must take care! that is me, my brother and my younger brother too!but that's my opinion not the core of my problem! because at least I still have a grandmother!but the core of the problem at the moment I stepped on my high school! at which time it was my sister who had participated in jakarta! and my grandmother could no longer take care of me! yes maybe because I'm tired of taking care! and at that time I lived just with my brother!imagine a house with a secluded position, far from relatives, neighbors, brothers and even parents! think with all the freedom I have! with my age who are still very young (at that time was only 16 years old) I could do all my freedom is!I often come home that night, still wearing a school uniform in a drunken state!I was drinking alcohol! definitely not openly! I enter that I got into alcohol in a black plastic! and I sat in the back seat in class! I would often get drunk in my own house with my friends! yet know the origin of all the madness that I just do itu1 I do when I've stepped on the class 12! because at the moment, all the people I care about no one beside me! no one is banning all the madness that I did! I had time to think why I like this?I think? where my parents? should educate me! which should set a good example for me!I'm sorry this story will continue next time! and I ask the reader to give me advice!